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After a recent correspondence with my teacher I have a little something more to say… you see – he has such a beautiful way of saying things, even things that are hard to hear. And it sometimes takes a while for me to hear them…

This conditioning is not simply based on statements or visuals. Not entirely formed by media representations or things I’ve heard. This conditioning is old; it’s been cultivated over years of hiding. What’s happened here is I have continued to believe these things and on a certain level it’s more comfortable to continue to believe them (because I already know what that feels like) rather than to face the pain of what I am hiding from.

What have I been hiding from? The truth of how I see myself.

Things going for me? More than two… Yes, the practice. As the fire begins to burn with renewed vigor, the amount I have learned and continue to learn from its struggles and its triumphs have begun to resurface. This is where the development of awareness comes. Awareness of movement, awareness of breath and most importantly thought patterns. But here are a couple things I left out…

A desire to see myself differently – this is important – thank you David. This desire is going to take something new happening in order to create new beliefs. So I’m on the train.

People I practice with, my family, my friends. Their stories, their support and love; this they put out into the world. That is inspiration – being able to see it as inspiration… that is a gift.

PS – Thank you for your comments; you are beautiful…